November 6, 2016
by Kim Sue
I have been dealing with an injury- a sprained hamstring. Not a big deal but I am a bit of an exercise addict. My family enjoys being active together and this silly situation has made me have to rest from that and it has been making me depressed. Trivial of me yes, but we all have our triggers. Anyway, this resting has been helping me see some pieces that need to change and I am becoming aware of mindsets that have caused me to be stuck. My body seems to mirror this as my muscles have locked up when they really need to relax and stretch.
There can be resistance when you have a thought to do something new. Sometimes there is a real fear that you cannot let go of what is “safe”, known and comfortable, but Holy Spirit is so sweet in nudging us along to our true heart’s desires. We sometimes talk ourselves out of God’s blessings, but He persists. He is bigger than our inflexibility and blowing winds across His garden and awakening us in the fragrance of His romance. There are some desires in your heart that He will flow with you to and through. Sometimes it is really simple little things, but I am learning to start trusting in the leading of my heart. He gave me a new heart and put His Spirit in me, made me a new creation and gave me “sheep ears” to hear His voice. Now He is showing me that His voice is totally different than religion’s “have to”, “ought to”, “should” language. It seems like baby steps, but it is so good and all His pathways are peace. Sometimes He is wanting you to make a choice that you want to make. Authentic is a word that has been ringing in my ears.
The only way He can shine with brightest brilliance in my life is through me being me because that is His design.
That is really a big thought for me. As a child it came naturally to gravitate to my interests but now I sometimes find they are buried under layers of false expectations and judgements I place on MYSELF. However, we shall know the truth and the truth will set us free. He is the way the truth and the life so it seems like Jesus has done it again. He sets us free to be alive fully in Him. Sometimes it feels irresponsible to me to make my own authentic choice, but if you have died and He is living in you, this is where trust begins and freedom starts.
I don’t have this figured out but am learning to run to Daddy on my toddler feet so that He can scoop me up and swing me around and make me fly.
“My words find voice in you. With your abiding in me and my words abiding in you a conversation is inspired where you will request that which arises in your desire from our union and it shall come to pass for you! These union-inspired desires bear the very fruit that endorses the Father’s glory! This is where true discipleship is born.”
John 15:7-8 Mirror Translation
September 24, 2016
by Kim Sue
She doesn’t care that she’s wearing a turban and her eye’s don’t match!
Life is a playground with God at your side. You swing around and think you are going to fall but He catches you and surprises you in so many ways.
I saw this lady in a salon window. Well a picture of a lady 🙂 I loved the words “awaken the glow”. As the week progressed a random stream of occurrences spoke to me about awakening the glow and how that “glowing” is how we truly look to our Father.
“It doesn’t matter” These words were in the song I heard at the gym. None of the other lyrics really phased me but God was singing to me about his kingdom and lifting my spirits. “It doesn’t matter”, “It doesn’t matter” just washed over me. “It doesn’t matter” speaks to the ways we place significance on what He is already taking care of on our behalf. We walk through life with a finished work perspective.
Later I was reading in John Crowder’s Mystical Union about Philippians 2:12-13 in which Paul exhorts us to work out our salvation with fear and trembling. John clarified that Paul was encouraging the Philippians to fear trusting themselves and continue to place their confidence in God knowing it is Him who works in them to will and to do of His good pleasure. It is the process of Christ awareness not some call to work in the flesh. Here is the Arthur S. Way translation of Philippians 2:12-13 shared in Mystical Union:
“Since I am far away…work out, with fear and self-distrust, ay, with trembling self-distrust, your own salvation. You have not to do it In your unaided strength; It is God who is all the while supplying the impulse, giving you the power to resolve, the strength to perform, the execution of His good-pleasure”
This lead me to look up this verse on Escape to Reality. Paul Ellis also had some great insights which helped me hear what God was saying to me.
It was a great comfort to realize that fear and trembling is a normal part of this life of faith. We walk by faith not by sight. Sometimes our emotions are tentative. We disqualify ourselves because we think someone with more faith would do better. The apostle Paul said he did not come with words of wisdom or eloquent speech… He came in fear and trembling and guess who also showed up ? Hint: “A demonstration of the Spirit’s Power”. (1 Cor 2:1-4)
So, I found myself re-qualified. As a analytical, reserved, and sometimes fearful person – I am completely qualified to reveal His glory. The fear and trembling to me is like stage fright. It is like a proof that God wants to step out. That becomes a happy experience when we yield to it.
Enjoy being you.
Know that in your fear, inadequacy, blah blah blah, you are brave, qualified and fully equipped in His reality. You do not have to prove anything, you just have the freedom to flow with Him and experience something of His ocean of love that surges through this earth wanting to love, health, prosper and protect. Remember to splash in the puddles a bit and have some fun with your heavenly Daddy.